LOOKOUT!!!
2006 is coming!!!!..and I'll be ushering in the new year at the airport, most likely wallowing in self-pity as I watch happy travelers going away to warm sunny vacation spots. See at most peoples job's they wish that they could go on vacation.. well at my job I get to be mocked all night by people doing just that. Oh well, I guess if I start off on a low then it can only get better from there huh. I think that 2005 has shown us that the world is continuing it's slow downward spiral. I mean weather, society, media, it's all just getting a little crazy. The craziest thing is that most people are to crazy to realize that everything is crazy because there crazy brains are just getting too used to the crazyness; and it's not going to get any better, when the majority of kids are being almost completely raised by society and the media and brainless celebrities, and the ones that are left unphased by all that end up following the crowd to fit in anyways, until were left with nothing but mindless droids listening to really bad music. Phew, ok deep breath, I feel better now. Meh, what do I care anyways, people can do what they want. Makes me think of part of a Bright Eyes song:
So I have been hanging out down by the train's depot. No, I don't ride, I just sit and watch the people there. They remind me of wind up cars in motion. The way they spin and turn and jockey for positions. And I want to scream out that it is all nonsense. And that their lives are one track, and can't they see how it is all pointless? But then, my knees give under me. My head feels weak and suddenly it is clear to see that it is not them but me, who has lost my self-identity. As I hide behind these books I read, while scribbling my poetry, like art could save a wretch like me, with some ideal ideology that no one can hope to achieve. And I am never real; it is just a sketch of me. And everything I have is trite and cheap and a waste of paint, of tape, of time. Wow, anyways that's enough negativity now. Ok first resolution for me: not so much negativity, and go easy on the rants. Ya that sounds good. I mostly just feel bad that I won't be with Clair for the 2nd year in a row. I actually think this will be a good year. I'm going to try not to sweat the small stuff, and I think i'll try to be productive and happy. Or I could do as Charlie Brown does, instead of being wishy-washy, i'll just be wishy one day, and washy the next. Well anyways I hope everyone has a good new years and I'll see ya in 2006.
Wow, thats one big messy paragraph, I should probably throw in a new years limerick, just for good measure:
Some people work on new years
missing the laughter and tears
but don't cry for me
'cause as you can see
i've snuck in a couple of beers
haha (just kidding of course)
posted by Mike @ 6:17 AM
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