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Feelin' Fine

I think that the one constant with moods is that they will invariably change.

I don't always have an explanation for the way i'm feeling, and I don't always understand my own moods. Lately i've been feeling like I want more. More time, more money, more vacations, more excercise, more intelligence, more consistency, more change, more understanding; just more. It's not the way that I want to feel, things could be a lot worse; many people have a lot less and they're fine. So i've been left feeling guilty, and unmotivated and confused. Circumtance plays a large role in all of this. During hard times it's usually never as bad as people think it is at the time. Things change, circumstances change, and all we can really do is just roll with it. So it's the seemingly arbitrary nature of moods that has caused me go from feeling like I want more, to not only no longer feeling that way, but to feeling good about what i've got.

I had a good weekend. I played video games for like eight hours straight and watched some hockey and played pool with Andrew. I went out with Clarissa to Blue Man Group, and played some pool and ate some greasy bar food. My apartment is clean again and i've got my laundry done. A guy's being interviewed on a tv talk show about how he lost his legs from being crushed under a rock. Now he's taken up rock climbing. When you're feeling good, it's probably not going to be that way forever, when your feeling bad, it's also probably not going to be like that forever. I think this is an important point to remember. I guess thats what i've concluded from all the self psycho-analysis that for some reason i've subjected myself to. You make the most out of what life gives you.

I'm feeling good today. I work tonight, but that ok. Lots of people would love to be in my position, i'm not going to take work for granted today.

posted by Mike @ 3:07 PM